Pretty much. The miasma made it difficult to feel a lot, but that didn't stop people like Sho from pining for attention constantly. It was essentially like being assaulted by negative emotions 24/7 and desperation was a popular choice.
Subete and I are used to that, so it didn't affect us the same way. We didn't share anything unless we wanted to, but we still had to deal with the sludge from everyone else.
Which dragon? Were they actually in that form a lot??
[ Assuming that was referring to Flayn or Seteth, anyway, since he doesn't know what the hell was going on... Ugh, actually getting yelled at by Seteth probably would have made him cry; he'd come close enough when it wasn't even him he was upset with. ]
Anyway, I don't blame you, I probably would have done the same. I could count the people I would have been interested in conversing with on one hand.
I distracted you from that at least a little bit, right?
Flayn and no. I don't know if she was upset about Battler or upset that Date and I were commandeering the hot tub. She settled down after she had Gio and Sho to keep her busy but being yelled at was better, actually. Roared at?
I don't know. Even if it sort of stressed me out, that was preferable to being ignored.
I know I complained about you being mean to me, but it would have felt worse if I hadn't even been worth that effort.
That looks pathetic now that I'm stuck here staring at it in text format, but whatever. And if it did make that time a bit more tolerable for you, I'm glad.
[ He has several big regrets about what happened, actually, just not this particular aspect of it... ]
Well, I'm apparently bad at letting go of things.
...And I suppose that's part of it in more ways than one, really. That you never acted like I was wrong for what I was trying to do.
If everything I've seen about my world here is actually true, then even Jade was going to give up on it. It was HIS idea and his promise in the first place, and stupid Peony still managed to talk him into believing that it was too unethical.
Well, he changed his mind for the wrong reasons and came to the wrong conclusion. And that's right, I'm the only one who knows the real him, so it's up to me to do this for him.
Anyway, if I can go back to the same time I left, I can stop him from trying that failed experiment in the first place. One positive thing I've learned from all this is that the Score isn't written in stone after all, so there's no reason things have to happen exactly that way again.
If I start doing that, you'll know it's not actually me. But changing my mind doesn't mean I gave up either.
[ They had broached this subject recently but it went a bit sideways with a personal history dump and all of that. That's probably why he needs to restate it more clearly, but it's also possible he's been doing some thinking in the time since then. ]
[ He has a pretty good idea of what Hikage is getting at with that, and he frowns down at his phone. He isn't eager to accept that decision either, but it's a very different situation anyway, and it isn't something he's ready to fight over now when it's not clear that it would even be a feasible option.
There's a substantial pause before he sends his one-word reply. ]
[ The future is ever changing, or it seems to be lately; shockingly it doesn't seem to be the worst thing either, at least for Hikage. But the specifics can be ironed out later. ]
Oh, also, when you're here, could you ask Marona at some point how she's liking it here? Like, while I'm in the shower or something and not there listening.
I'm not sure if she'd say anything to me if she was unhappy.
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Subete and I are used to that, so it didn't affect us the same way. We didn't share anything unless we wanted to, but we still had to deal with the sludge from everyone else.
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Well, that sounds terrible.
...No one was thinking rude things about me specifically, were they?
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? Not that I remember, but I kept as limited company as I could. Even I get bored of being yelled at, even if it's by a dragon.
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[ Assuming that was referring to Flayn or Seteth, anyway, since he doesn't know what the hell was going on... Ugh, actually getting yelled at by Seteth probably would have made him cry; he'd come close enough when it wasn't even him he was upset with. ]
Anyway, I don't blame you, I probably would have done the same. I could count the people I would have been interested in conversing with on one hand.
I distracted you from that at least a little bit, right?
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Yeah, but it was probably better for me than you.
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I know I complained about you being mean to me, but it would have felt worse if I hadn't even been worth that effort.
That looks pathetic now that I'm stuck here staring at it in text format, but whatever. And if it did make that time a bit more tolerable for you, I'm glad.
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I still don't understand why you're nice to me. But if we both don't regret anything that happened, I guess that's alright.
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Well, I'm apparently bad at letting go of things.
...And I suppose that's part of it in more ways than one, really. That you never acted like I was wrong for what I was trying to do.
If everything I've seen about my world here is actually true, then even Jade was going to give up on it. It was HIS idea and his promise in the first place, and stupid Peony still managed to talk him into believing that it was too unethical.
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He changed his mind?
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He did, and he cut ties with me completely because I wouldn't accept it. So I left and continued without him.
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Anyway, if I can go back to the same time I left, I can stop him from trying that failed experiment in the first place. One positive thing I've learned from all this is that the Score isn't written in stone after all, so there's no reason things have to happen exactly that way again.
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IT'S A COMMON FIGURE OF SPEECH, I THINK YOU GET WHAT I MEAN.
All that to say I appreciate that you understand my intentions and don't give me any of that moral superiority garbage.
[ SO DON'T YOU START NOW ]
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If I start doing that, you'll know it's not actually me. But changing my mind doesn't mean I gave up either.
[ They had broached this subject recently but it went a bit sideways with a personal history dump and all of that. That's probably why he needs to restate it more clearly, but it's also possible he's been doing some thinking in the time since then. ]
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Right.
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I'll see you next weekend.
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Oh, also, when you're here, could you ask Marona at some point how she's liking it here? Like, while I'm in the shower or something and not there listening.
I'm not sure if she'd say anything to me if she was unhappy.
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I'm surprised she agreed to live with you actually, but I'm glad she did. The Foundation is still trash.
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And I'm probably more surprised than you are, but yes, I'm glad too. It was sort of depressing here when it was just me and a bird.
[ very much an understatement, and it was worse before the bird. ]
So I'd like to think it worked out for the best for both of us.
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There's a saying or something like that, isn't there? I'm not sure I believe in it, but I can make an exception or two.
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Not in those exact words, I don't think, but I imagine so.
Finding the right company helps, anyway.
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Yeah
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Is there anything I should bring? Things are a little busy but I think I can get pretty much anything.
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I don't think there's anything we would specifically need, besides these gaming things I'm already buying.
Maybe a pillow, but I can just buy another one of those too if that would be annoying to travel with.
What day were you planning on getting here anyway, Friday?
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