Looking at that potential future really is useless. [ It's said more to himself even if he's not entirely averse to going down that rabbit hole. He's kind of made his own decision already as far as his future goes, if he gets that far. But that's something he doesn't plan to tell anyone because he's just this way.

But onto the now: ]

Then you have the safe option of going back with someone else. I'm sure someone would take you in if it came down to that.