[ She really couldn't go easy on him huh. But Hikage deserves this and he did agree to it, so. He pauses awkwardly and redoubles his effort to find a butterfly in the foliage around them. ]
That's....yeah. [ Off to a great start, he swallows and then tries again. ]
It was my fault. You remember what happened to me in the second trial, right? When I woke up after that I was-it was difficult to act how I had been, up until then. Feeling despair like that just made me want to break something, and Subete, well he was himself. He made some stupid comment about my eye and knelt down to get a better look, so I just reached out and read his memories.
I'm pretty sure he threw me in response, but it was worth it to catch him off guard. It was a game, after that. I saw something I wasn't supposed to, and I just wanted to go deeper and deeper. From then on, whatever I could do to get at him I would.
[ Another pause, but the source of this one is obvious; a text message that he looks at with a huff. A short time later after tapping out a response (he's still not fast with text but he doesn't need to be if his reply is short) and he continues. ]
...I know how to court others. Love and despair can easily go hand in hand, you know? I wasn't serious when I was talking with him, I just wanted to knock him off center again. You could say a similar thing happened with Saphir too.
I'm not really sure when that changed. I was never seriously interested in a relationship, let alone one with a man. I think at some point, I realized I couldn't stop. And that I didn't want to.
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That's....yeah. [ Off to a great start, he swallows and then tries again. ]
It was my fault. You remember what happened to me in the second trial, right? When I woke up after that I was-it was difficult to act how I had been, up until then. Feeling despair like that just made me want to break something, and Subete, well he was himself. He made some stupid comment about my eye and knelt down to get a better look, so I just reached out and read his memories.
I'm pretty sure he threw me in response, but it was worth it to catch him off guard. It was a game, after that. I saw something I wasn't supposed to, and I just wanted to go deeper and deeper. From then on, whatever I could do to get at him I would.
[ Another pause, but the source of this one is obvious; a text message that he looks at with a huff. A short time later after tapping out a response (he's still not fast with text but he doesn't need to be if his reply is short) and he continues. ]
...I know how to court others. Love and despair can easily go hand in hand, you know? I wasn't serious when I was talking with him, I just wanted to knock him off center again. You could say a similar thing happened with Saphir too.
I'm not really sure when that changed. I was never seriously interested in a relationship, let alone one with a man. I think at some point, I realized I couldn't stop. And that I didn't want to.